Sunday, January 16, 2011

So Selfish They Are...

They keep fighting. They won't shut up.
He makes her cry, and she makes him drink. I hear yelling and cursing in the middle of the night. He sleeps in the guest room now. And it's quiet at the dinner table. The house is split up.
  • No more laughter.
  • Clothes are thrown out the house.
  • Glasses breaking.
  • Plastic smiles in public.
  • I don't even see his band anymore. The white picket fence seems pretty black right now. I hear them fight about money. Disputes about me and my brother. I try to tell him it's OK, but i think he's smarter than that. No more joint parent-teacher conferences. No more family vacations. Why can't they get over themselves? What about me and my brother? They're breaking up our secure bricked-shelter. So selfish they are, not realizing how i feel, how we feel... I try to block it out; say they'll work it out in counseling. But I as well, am smarter than that. They're not fair at all. One gets mad if I'm with the other. It's like competition to be the most likable. I don't understand what went wrong. They're like two different people now. Am I suppose to use this as a model of love? Is this what it's going to be like when I decide to bond my life with another? What happened to "until death do us apart"? I feel so alone, so left behind, uncared for, not understood.
    "Who's the new guy?"
    "Dad, why is your secretary over for dinner?" 
          The moon's clouding my sun. The fighting continues....our family split up:
        
          "Rachel, you're going over your father's this weekend."
     


For: anyone who's going through or went through a divorce
Memo: Just know that you are not alone in this, and your parents actually do care and love you; try to be a little understanding in what they're going through. Sometimes you have to be the bigger person, involving parents.


         

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